Lust Drama

Well fourth period yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought it would have been which was a RELIEF!
One of my old friends, RW ended up being behind it all without knowing.

He ended up coming to the Resource Room to talk to me, odd and unexpected.
Therefore I realized all the people who were chirping me were his ex gf's and ex gf's friends...I had no clue that many girl's held a grudge against me for me doing NOTHING.
It just so happens that basically all of his ex's were dumped by him because he claimed to be in love with me-aha! As if-how could an immature boy like him know what love is or claim to be in it with someone as messed up as I am? Crazy.

Two nights ago I ended up taking oxy's to numb my imaginary pain-this was a horrible idea. I couldn't get to sleep after taking a few because every noise I heard was 10 TIMES as loud in my head. Then last night because I hadn't taken any I was having withdrawals :S..
I couldn't stop shaking and was throwing up-never AGAIN.
Guess I'll have to try something not as addictive next time, as if I am saying there is a next time to experimenting with pills...wow.
ANYWAYS.

When I had gone to BH's over the weekend she had told me that BS was being cheated on by CG, I was pissed! He is the biggest player ALIVE. She is so in love with him and then he goes and fucks some random whore, real nice. No one was telling her what everyone knew so, me being someone who always does what she feels is right told her. BIG MISTAKE. CG txted me and was like "go fucking kill yourself, no one will ever LOVE you". Kind of harsh, it hurt but still I held myself back to reply cause I knew he would stop if I didn't get him even more wound up-he has anger issues. Anyways my way of trying to do something right totally backfired. She wouldn't believe me cause she thinks she is so in love with this stupid boy. Like I have no reason to have lied, its completley crazyness.

- In conclusion LOVE always fucks people over, especially the way they think. I doubt even love exists, I mean it's probably all lust. Lust, lust, lust...