"Life is just like a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside you."- Wally Amos

This is my first time writing a blog, and to be frank I'm a little bit frightened. I'm not afraid of this blog but I am afraid of life in general. I love writing for it's how I express myself and let all of my bottled up feelings out. I seem to bottle up a lot of emotions through out my entire life. One day they are eventually going to all come out so this might as well be the spot. I'd rather tell a bunch of people I don't know about my problems than the people closets to me, it's just how I am. But my largest fears in life seem to be rejection and failure. I never wish to feel those pains, but I know it's what you will have to deal with through out life. So in order for me to deal with all of my many emotions I don't quite share, I write.

This blog is like a journal for me I guess, or is going to be once I start writing more. I will tell whoever decides to read about my battlefield like love past with relationships and family, about the struggles or highlights in life I end up coming across. Hopefully my writing will interest or help someone dealing with the same sort of situations.

Some hectic problems in my past include my alcoholic, cocaine addict, anger issued mother-who wasn't much of a mother. The boy who I fell in love with, lost my virginity, lost myself to that I ended up dating for two years. He is the one person who has caused me so much struggle in trying to forget because he broke my heart, he help turn my life into this war zone. I guess these are some stories I shall share eventually when I need to let them out of my system.

-In conclusion this is my blog about how my life has become somewhat of a battlefield in love and life.